Random Thoughts

I am doing my best to figure myself out. More times than not, I have no idea what the fuck I am doing. I Do my best to create things that inspire people to be a better version of themselves. I realized I have been preaching things that I myself need to follow.

Everyone desires to fall in love, yet no one wants to be vulnerable and take the chance. What's crazy is it seems half of the population is too guarded, and the other half just settles with whoever puts up with them first.

It's hard as fuck to not get discouraged if you're a person who is

motivated by one day falling in love and building a life with someone.

As fast as Marriages are beginning,

they are ending.

And in the end, the other person is always blamed.

I understand keeping someone around, because you don't want to feel alone, I have been there. It's no longer my motivation. I also understand never completely letting your guard down because you're afraid of getting hurt, I still do it. Shit, I do it

with every relationship. I legit am counting the minutes until someone

"does me wrong," or leaves.

We forget that being cold and guarded only makes us selfish.

But kindness? Man, that makes us beautiful.

It makes people gravitate toward us, desire to speak with us and be in our presence.

Always consider who you surround yourself with when someone is trying to dim your light or finds enjoyment in your pain.

Sometimes, it takes letting everyone go. By that, I just mean, take a step back, only focus on you. Ask people for space, for time. Some will leave because they don't want to wait, let them go. The ones who truly love you and want the best for you, will support you, ask you if you need any help, they will understand.

Take time to know yourself. That sounds corny as hell, but I mean it. Know what you like and what you don't like, so that you can attract your type of vibe.

Don't settle for shitty relationships. Don't settle for shitty friendships. Be honest. Be kind. Be humble.

Look up when you feel down. Keep your head high.

@rachaaelbrand

Read that again.

Love has become my forbidden fruit, it's what I crave the most and yet

it kills me every time I touch it. It used to kill me when love walked away.

And yet,

here I am.

I truly believe our darkest times, are our deepest.

We have to dig deeper to live.

Dig deeper to get out of bed, to shower, to put on a smile, to engage, to live.

Somedays, It feels like a big heavy cloud, dropping rain. You remind yourself that the trees are a beautiful bright green when the sun is shinning, you know that the sun feels so good on your skin, and the sky is a gorgeous shade of blue.

But right now,

all you feel is the rain and all you see are the dark clouds.

Just Random thoughts.

By @rachaaelbrand