Self Awareness is key

Figuring yourself out is hard as fuck, no one prepares you for that test. We are surrounded by people's judgements based off of their own insecurities. People will try and make you feel bad for not living the life THEY think you should. These same people have the worst struggle within, they prefer to tell you what you need to change, because they don't have the bravery to change within.

The only person you need to answer to, is you. You have to answer not only for the action in your life, but the reaction as well.

I got so caught up in what everyone did wrong to me, that my reaction grew darker and darker each time. I began to dwell and think that people were treating me bad or shitty situations were happening because there was something wrong with me, I wasn't worth being happy. That became my only means of conversation, "this is what's wrong in my life," to anyone who would listen. "I've done shitty things, but only because people have done them to me," was no longer cutting it in my head. I realized people feeling sorry for me, not only made me look weak, but I didn't even want to be around myself anymore. I thought it was the ultimate strength to just ghost bad situations and never understand them. But running away doesn't fix what's broken, it only leaves it waiting, until it comes up and punches you in the face.

We need to understand we may not like the situation we are in , but, some where along the line, our reaction to other peoples actions, led us to where we are today.

Instead of asking God, the universe or people why our lives suck, or why we don't have something, we need to truly dig deep and understand how we are holding ourselves back, what got us to where we are today. Asking people to feel sorry for you won't happen, in fact it makes people leave. The only people who will listen to you complain, are other complainers.

If you don't like the situation you are in, ask yourself what you want. I mean really, all alone, what YOU want. Don't ask other people's opinions, they have their own motives. Dig deep and find out what really sets your soul on fire, then go after it. Don't like the way you look or feel? Ask yourself why? Is self love truly missing? Are you giving love to everyone but yourself? Pursue yourself, pursue the person you want to be. Make a plan on how to change, to adapt, come up with goals to get you where you want to be. Don't become a prisoner, use everything as a lesson, learn from the bad and continue the good.