Today's Random Thoughts

I don't want to go too deep today.

Who am I kidding, I always go deep.

This one is actually for my future husband, I have no Idea who the fuck you are yet, but damn are you in for an entertaining life. It's going to be pretty cool, you telling me one day how you read this article and you thought I was weird for writing to someone who didn't exist. A made up idea that some women get told growing up. And even though these days I get told to not believe that lie, I know that my version of the story is true.

I'm sad to see the way boys and girls are being raised, I believe to help grow our children in to wonderful men and women of the world, we must guide them in how to love themselves, love others and expect nothing in return.

When I was growing up, I learned by watching and what I thought in my head. Some thoughts were so disheartening, I grew up thinking that once I looked a certain way, then everything would be better and I would live happily ever after. As I grew older I kept focusing on my look, thinking if I tweaked it a little, maybe I could find love.

Once I actually got into my first relationship, I made sure I always looked good; outfit, hair, make up. But, it didn't stop him from leaving. I didn't get it, I looked the way I wanted, how come I couldn't find someone to love me?

Fast forward to many relationships later, I have finally learned what it is all about.

Life doesn't have a destination, life is the fairytale. We have bad shit happen, that makes us work harder to get the good. When bad shit happens, it's not supposed to sink our ship, it's to prepare us on how to eventually build a whole new one. I have finally come to a point where I am no longer holding all my wrongs over my shoulders to hold me down, but to stand up tall with and become stronger.

I know it is frustrating for you to wait all these years, but I am not ready for you yet. I am still in the process of getting to know me and falling in love. But, I also know this is your time as well, to go through what you need to go through, to start your foundation, to be who you want to be, so that one day, our paths can cross.

I am in no rush for forever love, I hope you remain patient and just continue to invest in you, in your mind, in your soul and in your body. Remember, everything you do is a reflection of you, wear it with pride.

Your Future Wife.

Today's random thoughts.