I legit threw a fit in the gym today

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First, let me start this by saying; I know people look at people in the gym, sometimes I have even sneaked a look or two at someone I have found attractive. Okay, I've said it, now we can move on.

There was this man , you know the decline bench for abs? Well, he was posted up the other way, laying back like he was at the beach. Directly in front of me, watching me do barbell pulls. At first, I thought he was just resting the first time I made eye contact. So I ignored him... then I got pissed. You can actually see it in the picture above. Then, he put his hand on his head as if to relax more and his belly popped out. And old fat man just sitting there, enjoying the view. Not working out, no weights around him, legit just laying there. I kept staring.

Then I stood up and stared at him. He realized what I was doing and changed his focus to another girl that was doing flat bench chest curls, and licked his lips as he stared at her. I was heated at this point. And yes, I went and tattle tailed to the manager.

I usually don't even look up in the gym, because I know how I get if I see someone staring, like I mentioned before, a look is different from posting up and just staring at someone for longer that a minute. It's creepy and it made me lose focus. The situation didn't make me lose focus, I allowed myself to.

After I told one of the people who worked there, I walked away to my next workout. I asked myself why it got me so heated, so what? He was staring, why does that piss me off? I'm in here bettering myself and this dude is sexualizing me and it's pissing me off. Honestly, trying to get to the root, I don't know why it pisses me off so much. I can't stand when people stare, period. Maybe it's because I don't know what they are thinking? Or maybe I just want to ask "what the fuck are you looking at?" With this dude, I almost did, but I didn't. I reminded myself why I was there, and to get back on track. Luckily, I have a friend that can tell me I'm being dumb and to focus on my shit, cause that's all I can control. I made sure I kept the fuel of that anger I felt from that situation and put it into the rest of my workout.

After I finished my workout, I was kind of glad that the creepy dude situation happened, because it pushed my brain into overdrive intensity and I went harder on my workout then I initially intended to.

Did I mention right before that situation that my headphones died? Yea, so I was already in a pissed off state.

So, this also proved to me, why I have the rules that I have for myself in the gym:

1. Always have your headphones fully charged bitch, so you can better focus on yourself and your workout.

2. Either look up or down while at the gym, never straight ahead, so that you can never know if someone is staring or not.

3. Wear a hat, so you can't see anybody, it helps you focus better on you.

4. Stop giving a fuck what anyone else is doing, focus on your own shit. Even if it means throwing a fit to get yourself to the other side of not giving a fuck.

Looking back I realized I wasted too much time focusing on how creepy this dude was, either go say something or move on. Don't dwell, or focus on what you can not control, only you. It was definitely a learning lesson, I still don't like to be stared at, but I also don't need to waste time focusing on shit I can not control, that only holds me back and I want to move forward.

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